.Monday, July 6, 2009.
11:57 AM Y
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My CRAP:
I definitely need to get a job.
RM100 a week is totally not enough.
Eeek~
Too many activities already.
FAU, OONite, TTNite, Promtay, Clubbing, Pub, Late night drinks,
Yamcha la~
Drinking beside a huge lake la~
(same same la)
OMG...
It's just too much.
Need to buy dresses, mask, drinks, need to do my hair,
etc etc etc...
Anyways,
yesterday was TTNite, they were so damn good that I felt like the Performance group for OONite really suck.
Even if TTNite does not exist, they would still look bad.
Especially the guys, they are so super gay and sissy,
that I think me and my girlfriends are eeven more man than them.
We were watching halfway and decided to just ditch their practice cause we were actually suppposed to judge them & give comments.
But, we decided to go dinner cause it was very very late & most of us hardly ate anything that day since it was one of our campaigning days.
HAH! They criticise us,
but I think we Campaign Finalists are better.
We might not be very very pretty or handsome
but there's one thing we have which is: we actually use our brains.
The EVENTS:
Promtay was so cool, but I didn't quite enjoy myself 'cause I was kind of sick.
Really love my mask. =)
Wore Vir's red dress. Loving it.
Didn't have much fun until the time we were to go home.
Someone actually asked my number.
That made my day.
=D
TTNite (Talentine Nite) was good too.
The people obviously are really talented.
Dance, sing, emcee, instrumental...
It was nice but at certain parts-all I remember is sleeping on Sam's shoulder.
I would jump awake to watch the nice ones.
It's pretty easy to know when the good ones are on.
You could just feel your eardrums bursting due to the crowd's screams.
Not to mention, I'm VIP!!!
There was this fella that's suppose to be like a bouncer won't actually let me go to the toilet,
and he actually told me that the door is only for VIPs and Comittees.
I'm like:
put my hand on my hips and said "I'm a VIP" with an annoyed look on my face.
And he straight away opened the door for me to go to the loo.
Now that's absolutely fun.
OONite (Orientation Odyssey Nite) will be this coming Sunday.
Luckily I already bought my dress yesterday with Vir and Che'nelle.
I miss them!!!
Haiyak, got to do my hair like yesterday again.
It's pretty cheap & they are really good.
It only costs RM30 in total.
But that's cause all I did was cut & do temporary perm.
kekeke <3
Late Night Dinner + Drink at Feeling Cafe last night after TTNite.
OMG, was playing this game where we spin the bottle & pick a card.
A person has to spin the bottle and then pick a card.
If the card is red, the person has to kiss the one the bottle pointed to.
Um, KISS ON THE LIPS ya...
If it's black, then the person will have to get slapped.
So, I played and I slapped none but was slapped once.
And kissed 2 guys and 1 girl on the lips.
Before that we played truth or dare without the truth choice.
Haha.
So we made the guys go up to girls to get numbers,
we made some of them to kiss guys.
And many many more weird dares la.
One of my girlfriends actually has to go up to the guy that likes her and kiss him on the cheek.
& guess what?!!!
He BLUSHED!!!
And seriously, he's quite good looking.
*whistles*
Campaign week was tiring. Thank god Kenneth actually helped me.
He didn't have to but he did & I'm really grateful, I'll treat him to whatever it is that he wants.
But, I haven't asked him yet lo.
Anyways, on the last day of our campaign week,
which is Friday like d'oh~
I got really upset by someone.
But never mind, it's ok right now.
I don't need him now. I appreciated him alot.
I loved him alot but after what he did to me, he's not worth my crap.
Fumi's so right.
This kind of guy can just go to hell.
Furthermore, I already can have someone else.
I bet he does too~ So what right?
I take it that everything's over.
I'M SINGLE AGAIN!!!
& I WILL REMAIN UNTIL I FIND SOMEONE THAT I CAN REALLY TRUST.
SOMEONE LIKE FUMI BUT BETTER. =)
I DON'T HAVE TO SAY IT BUT I KNOW I AM.
KEKEKE...
That's it for now lerr.
Will try to post pictures of my "boyfriends" and I soon.
.Monday, June 22, 2009.
5:42 AM Y
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Blargh~
I'm so tired but I'm pushing myself really hard.
I don't know when I'll fall off the edge
& lose my cool.
My waist hurts & my thighs too.
This whole thing is making me lose control of my life.
It's kind of emotional now.
But there are also the ups:
I like being with these people.
=)
Oh, and...
I'd really like to take back what I've said before about liking smart guys~
Plus loving some guy & his hands.
Hopefully there's no misunderestanding.
Yes, I do like smart guys...
But also down-to-earth people~
=D
Don't anyone terasa ya.
I'm so so so worried & tired & omg...
EVERYTHING lah~
I feel like I'm being swallowed by a tornado.
.Saturday, June 13, 2009.
10:49 PM Y
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RANDOM PICTURES
KLCC trip last night.
Captured this while they walked away from me~
Huhu~
Then, Kennard said: Wanna take pic den say la.
Hahahaha!
Cause earlier we were criticising those ppl who were nonstop taking pictures.
XD
OONite partners except the one in the middle, Kenneth.
He's senior.
So, Sam & Just was trying to make him help us out with our campaign
wherelse us girls decided to lepak & chit chat.
XD
This is my beloved classmates.
We were supposed to be discucssing our Hubungan Etnik proj.
But, hm~
Do they even look like they are discussing?
AHA!
This is what the makeup artists did to my face.
Don't even comment.
Vince actually said I look horrible right in my face.
=(((
& Silver told me my hair looks ugly.
='(((
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3:34 PM Y
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I told myself to never be affected by him.
But I don't know why,
when I got his message today,
I felt this pinch in here, somewhere lost & forgotten.
The wall that I built so hard for the past few weeks,
collapsed...
Why now?
Why?
Why when I decided that I could go on with the situation now...
Why does it always have to change whenever I settled down & accepted it for what it is...
WHY??!!!
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Yesterday night, went out to catch a movie with Just & Kennard.
We went to KLCC.
They were really friendly & funny.
I had a glimpse of their past.
Eventhough they put on a smiley face,
whenever it comes to their previous love lives,
you could see the sligth change in their eyes.
So, anyway, we watched BLOOD: The Last Vampire.
The effects suck really bad.
The whole show is only fighting & fighting non-stop.
Simple intro, simple ending.
Kennard was relly nice.
Before the show, we wanted to go to the loo.
But, I had to look after the food while both of them went.
Then Kennard went the second round to accompany me to the toilet.
See, Just, u should learn from him.
Haha.
Guys...sometimes, some of them just won't bother to be nice.
On the way back to hostel, we wanted to run out of the LRT we're on,
into the LRT on the other side,
JUST FOR FUN.
KEKEKE~
But we didn't do it.
I bet if I weren't there, they would have done it.
So when the doors closed, they started plotting how to push me into the opposite train at the next station just before the doors closed, then they can abandon me.
It's relly mean, but I know they're just kidding.
Hehe.
I got back to hostel at 12am plus by taxi with Just & his friend, Alvin, that we met while waiting for the taxi.
Then I sort of helped Just with our OONite video, watched HK dramas till 3.30am.
CHEERS!
This is what college life should be.
=D
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3:14 PM Y
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.Tuesday, June 9, 2009.
9:51 PM Y
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Yesterday went out for a movie~
I Corrupt All Cops.
I don't know is it because I'm already too tired,
or because the show's boring,
my eyelids kept sliding down my pupils.
There was a massive jam on the way back.
Made me missed my meeting.
This is what they call Opportunity Cost in Economics.
HAHAHA.
Anyway,
I really did enjoy myself.
It's like going out with someone very close to me.
Someone that I can actually count on to be there for me.
The touch is so warm...
maybe 'cause the cinema's too cold.
Before that, went to his house to get some DVDs.
'Some' was the plan but I ended up taking 27 dramas/movies.
Imagine that.
XD
That aside,
today I had another meeting.
I love my team members so much.
It's so nice having them around.
We were too bored & our team leader,
Sam, decided to play arm wrestle.
It might sound stupid to some, but it was fun.
He is really a gentleman,
you could see it if you know him longer.
So, obviously, he would pretend to lose to the girls.
He's a really good actor when it comes to such things like that.
I also got through the 1st interview to join the
SBS Student Welfare Comittee(SWC).
We are required to dress formally for the 2nd interview
on either one of the days from next Mon til Wed.
Hopefully I will get through.
I'm so so so excited!
That's all for now I guess. =)
Bye people.
I LOVE HIM.
& his hands.
Brilliance~
.Thursday, June 4, 2009.
10:29 PM Y
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I recalled writing this sometime ago & as I went through my drafts,
I found this, take a look & do comment in my cbox. thx. I think of it as one of my bests.
I haven't named it, so do give suggestions. =)
She lies in her bed and stares at the blur vision of the ceiling. A tear streamed down her cheeks and dampens her pillows. No one knew how she felt or what she thought. She turned to her sides and picked up her phone. The feeling, tortures with familiarity to her. Pain surged through her body and her lungs clogged up with sobs. The screen showed no sign of any missed calls or any messages left to be read. There was no concern whatsoever from anyone. She felt empty, and hollow.
Her eyes were lifeless. The sparkle that was once there, was nowhere to be seen. Her skin was pale, and damp, from all the crying. Her hands shook with every move made. There’s no urgency. It was all a routine, that she practiced every night. It went on for hours and these hours, was never once enough to overcome the pain. The ache. It was all she needed.
Every day, was another new play. She pretended to be normal. She smiled, she joked, she laughed. But the pain was never forgotten. Always there. The cut, the wound, in her heart would never heal.
All that was left, are memories. He never spoke to her again. No more midnight calls. No more sweet talks. She never found notes in her locker again. No more gifts on ordinary days. And no beautifully sentenced messages, to melt her heart. He was no longer there.
She reached under her bed. Her fingertips, felt for something rough, old. Something… worn-out. She searched, for the box. She knew perfectly well that it’s in there. She knew, every little thing that would remind her of his presence, is stored carefully, safely, in that box. Every card, every gift, every single word, every touch, and every single feeling, was hidden in that tiny little box. Once, an empty, useless, box, could now contain her world, her life, her happiness, and everything, and everything that could mean anything to her.
She did this without looking. It was familiar to her. It was…a chore, a habit, a practice, a tradition. Whatever you would call an activity, which was so often, so frequently, repeated. Once again, she pulled at the edges of the lid of the box. She opened it. Slowly…
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12:02 AM Y
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"In old days there were angels who came and took men by the hand and led them away from the city of destruction. We see no white-winged angels now. But yet men are led away from threatening destruction: a hand is put into theirs, which leads them forth gently towards a calm and bright land, so that they look no more backward; and the hand may be a little child's."
GEORGE ELIOT, Silas Marner
Now I'm currently involved in a campaign to raise donations
for Children of Gaza.
A Palestinian city at the southwest of Jerusalem.
Our aim is RM10, 000 from each school,
total would be RM50,000.
We are giving away postcards,
one for every RM10 donated.
On the 29th June until 3rd July,
we will be having a campaign at TARC canteen 2 foyer.
There will be games,
food & drinks,
not to mention lucky draw with attractive prizes.
School of Business Studies of TARC do come down and support your school.
Do us proud!
'Cause this is also a competition among 5 different schools.
Just come down,
play some games,
buy something~
All profit goes to the Children of Gaza
in collaboration with unicef & many more such as Bakti.
.Wednesday, June 3, 2009.
2:18 AM Y
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My gor said:
This world is gonna pull through
Don't give up
You've got a reason to live
Can't forget you only get what you give
This whole damn world can fall apart
You'll be ok follow your heart
Fly high
What's real can't die
You only get what you give
Just don't be afraid to leave
THANK YOU!!! =D
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12:40 AM Y
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Went for a drink again.
hehehe.
Got back at 12am orh~
My eyes are droopy already but I have stupid proposal to do.
& also sponsorship letter.
Someone, konk me out now.
But I'm happy!!!
=)))
Goodnight everybody.
LOVE YOU!!!
.Sunday, May 31, 2009.
5:18 PM Y
mix & match
facetheissue.com
All of us has thought of it.
To just kill ourselves.
Or even self-abuse.
We, this generation, grew up screwed.
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1:13 PM Y
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I love my mommy.
But I'm always too selfish to give in.
I want everything my way.
I cause all the fights,
& make everyone feel pressurised.
I shouldn't have came home.
This home is ruined by me myself.
I deserve to have nothing.
I want to quit everything now.
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10:22 AM Y
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LI EAN IS DEAD.
THERE'S NO POINT ANYMORE.
MAYBE IN ONE YEAR'S TIME,
OR MORE,
ONLY WOULD SHE BE BACK.
HER HAIR HAS BEEN MADE TO THE STYLE BEYOND REPAIR.
MAYBE TWO YEARS...
THEN IT MIGHT BE NORMAL AGAIN.
='(((((((((
EVERYTHING'S OVER,
INCLUDING HER LIFE.
.Friday, May 29, 2009.
5:22 PM Y
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Hm~
What does it feel like to just give up???
This relationship going on this way
is plain meaningless~
.Thursday, May 28, 2009.
6:28 PM Y
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He speaks alot about ideas & all,
I don't know but it feels like I'm being dismissed.
=(((
But, nvm.
It's ok.
Maybe it's because I can't do much.
My ideas or suggestions does not get acknowledgements.
It's just kind of saddening.
Anyway, I feel like I still have alot that I can contribute.
What if I were to leave~
I don't know.
I might not be that important then.
..
12:51 AM Y
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Hua hua hua!!!
So sien in college o...
But lea, now I just came back from having a drink with a friend outside.
So, I'm feeling abit...
Recharged???
Haha~
So many days didn't laugh like that liao.
I'm just plain happy right now.
Hopefully some idiot don't come along & ruin everything for me.
Some sick psycho actually don't trust me to do my job efficiently.
I feel like asking him to F*** off.
It's so sad that actually someone wants to check my work,
and he's not someone that I'm supposed to report to.
I hate people like that.
Not to mention being disturbed all the time
or seeing some idiot face smiling at you for no bloody reason.
But then, I'm glad that my friend just now actually spared his time to spend with me
even when he's so tired.
But I just love talking to someone like that.
Many opinions + laughters.
& crazy stuff.
Everything new.
=)
Now, that's something nice & worth keeping as a memory.
.Wednesday, May 27, 2009.
3:47 PM Y
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Smart Guys Give Me The Thrills??
Okay,
at last something nice to read on my blog???
hehehe~
Let me start from the beginning.
So, I just came back from lunch with my team member & leader
or director if that sounds better.
Haha.
So, I decided to write this when I was eating.
He just woke me up.
It popped into my mind & I realised something that IS SO true.
So, keep on reading, confession coming up.
I was looking at his face & the way he scrunches his face when he thought of something really hard,
or the way he speaks lopsided at times,
it's just so nice to watch.
I realised it was not his looks that attracted my attention,
but his attitude.
He's so smart, responsible, talented & captivating.
Now only did I notice that I like guys who are smart or somehow talented.
It's just so charming to me.
I know I sound like some idiot talking bout her newly crush
but no. N-O.
I really do like...
I admire them so so much.
Watching him talk, expand ideas, getting excited over new ideas,
even when he's just thinking,
I noticed most of his little habits.
& it's just so~
I don't know.
Makes me feel like spending time with him even more.
To be able to know him better.
IDK...
I'm going nuts~
note: exceptional to hostel guys. Here, I don't think any of them appeal to me. TQ. =)
.Tuesday, May 26, 2009.
11:37 AM Y
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NOBODY KNOWS THAT I'M SUFFERING DEEP DOWN INSIDE HERE.
I JUST CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE.
IT'S A MATTER OF TIME WHEN CRYING EVERYNIGHT WILL TURN BAD, REAL BAD.
EVERYDAY BECOMES WORSE THAN BEFORE,
& ONE DAY I'D BE IN SERIOUS NEED OF COUNSELLING.
CAN I START ALL OVER???
KLCC trip last night.
OONite partners except the one in the middle, Kenneth.
This is my beloved classmates.
AHA!
